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My Business Trip & the Outcome
by Susan Bane
My name is Susan and I have been a member of the Garden for some time. As some of my sisters would say that I have been lurking more than participating. But know I am about to share a story with you.
It was about two weeks ago I went on a business trip and finally got up enough nerve to go out in public. Mind you I was not out long, but out I was. I did a little window-shopping and smiled at passers by, as so many of you have recommended. After about a half an hour, I returned back to my hotel room thrilled that I had finally been able to go out in public and was still in one piece.
Well needless to say I was so excited and with anticipation of another business trip.
I returned home with a full heart but once home I began to feel depressed that I was en homme and not as Susan. So I dressed in Susan’s clothing under my drabs and asked my wife to dinner.
That night while we were enjoying the ambiance of the restaurant and chatting small talk the conversation turned to us and she asked how was my trip and what did I do.
Well the words formed on my lips, but did not come out! Then I looked over at her and with all the courage I could muster, while gazing into her eyes, I said, “How much do you love me”? She uttered “with all my heart, of course”. Then I asked, the words stuck but finally came out, “Would you love me the same amount if I wore a dress”, She replied, it depends on whether you look better than I do, we both laughed. I then said, “ Did you happen to notice I am wearing a bra to dinner this evening?” “She replied, no, is it one of mine,” she asked? I said no, I had my own, in fact I have entire wardrobe of clothing. I paused for a moment then I said, I am a Crossdresser and I enjoy wearing woman’s clothing. I told her the story about the business trip and how much I had enjoyed my first outing. I also shared with her how good it made me feel to dress and how dressing allows me to be a complete person, male and female.
She looked at me and smiled and said that we should leave. As we walked to the car she asked questions about how long, when did it start, why, all the question I anticipated and had rehearsed so many times before.
When we arrived at home she asked if I would show her my bra, when we got inside the house. I said of course. Once she saw how cute the bra was she asked if she could try it on. I said of course. I asked if she would you like to know more about my desires to dress and about my family of sisters. She said yes, but first let me try on your bra. So I removed my bra and handed to her? She said, Thank you and asked me if I wanted to try her bra on. I of course accepted. As we looked at each other I began to tell her that I had been a Crossdresser almost all my life. I shared with her that I had no interest in having a sex change, nor was I gay and I had no interest of ever being with men. This seemed to comfort her a lot.
We talked a little longer and then she asked me to try on one of her dresses. She then asked me if I had a wig and if I would please put it on. She looked at me and said, that is not going to work; it needs some work and hairspray. After about 1 hour of hair, makeup and undergarment support. I was transformed. She smiled and said good, now we need some jewelry. She began trying different pieces of jewelry on me until she was satisfied with the look.
We were sitting there talking when she asked me if I wanted to go out and have a drink with her. I shared with her that I did not believe that there were any safe havens in the neighborhood, but I would take a rain check. The rest of the night we sat talking about CD’ing, Susan and clothing.
Just before we went to bed, she noticed that I had a pair of white pajamas in my drawer and asked if she could wear them to bed, I of course said, yes, by all means.
That night I slept the best I have in years. Twenty-three years of hiding the truth and now it was all in the open. I can’t believe it…..
The next day I was dressed in a blouse, woman’s jeans and woman’s sneakers and we went out for breakfast. I had a sweater over the blouse, so I was not too obvious that I was wearing a bra and breastforms. After breakfast we went shopping for clothing and shoes, You know how I love shoe shopping. She would point out items that she thought would look good on me and I would return the favor.
Later that night we were having cocktail on the porch when she asked why I had not been talking about Cd’ing that day. I said that YOU, “MY sisters” had cautioned me about talking too much too soon and that I should wait until you proposed the questions.
As a follow up it has been two weeks since my coming out and she shares more and more with me each day. We are even discussing taking a Dignity Cruise.
Susan has been a member of our online group
A Crossdressers Secret Garden since September 2004,
her story was told May 2, 2006.
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